As I transfer home movies from vcr to dvd, oh how I long for and miss the days of old. Watching the children progress through the years right before my eyes. As tears stream down, wondering where the time went, I've learned to enjoy the now as well.
Enjoying each era of life as we go through it is a touch of wisdom that we must attain. Oh how I love each stage we've gone through and so love the one we are in now. As I heed the warnings of other moms who have gone through this stage, I sit and wonder why I love it so much.
The oldest, now 16, has become one of my best friends. I love to watch him as he digs in to finding God's purpose and direction for his life. As he is forever humbled and in awe each day as he learns more detail of God's design for life and this marvelous world. Oh yes, earning the degree is just a byproduct of the works that are being done on the inside. I'm forever inspired by the daily journaling he does as he seeks to follow the Shepherd's voice.
And oh the precious heart of the next. Now a teen herself, it's hard to accept. I daily see the inside heart who longs for fairness and tries to see that the underdog and the one left out is made to feel special and loved as well. Always struggling with being that middle child and needing to find her way, yet always serving and sacrificing her own wants for those around her. I see the works given by genes from her grandparents and the true unconditional love she has to offer. I'm forever moved when I look up and see tears streaming down upon her cheeks as she reads the latest live book that has moved her heart for justice. I reach out my arms and we cry together as she tells me of what she has read and discovered. Oh how it helps us to appreciate our lives when we see the rough times of those from the past.
And, yes, there's the baby. A tween herself, following in the footsteps of her sister, not. I remember sending her to her room as a toddler after being told not to come out until she would stop being grumpy. Yet now, has the most inspiring, bubbly spirit of us all. As she speaks with excitement, always being told to slow down so we can catch all of the words. Reaching inside as she expresses herself in her art and having so much fun along the way. Always a smile and looking to the good in everything she sees. A daily reminder to me that you get back what you put into things. I enjoy the occasional note and letters stuck in places of my daily routine that teach me to slow down to stop and smell the roses. How much of life would be missed and unappreciated had God not given me this gift.
I'm so thankful for this stage of my life. I enjoy my 3 "little" friends each day that we grow together. Yes, no more baths to give, clothes to change, or rooms to clean. My job now isn't focused as much on the outward daily cares of their flesh, but the molding of the inner heart aspiring to inspire and direct them to seek and hear their true Leader as I seek Him as well.
I cherish this stage of my life and am thankful for the leader and provider for our home, my husband, who himself sacrifices so much for all of us so that we can all grow and learn together as a family and work together as we walk through this journey of life. As I watch these movies of the past 28 years together and see how much we've grown together along the way, it helps me to appreciate my best friend and his genuine love for me even more.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
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In The Big Inning
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